I just threw up in my mouth a little...

Just found out that J has a new girl friend.  Cue weak stomach and involuntary gag. Why is it that even when the worst ex-boyfriends...better yet even the ones you broke up with start dating someone new it's sickening??? Or is it just me? I dread the day ex-almost-mr. womer gets a new girlfriend, I'll have to have someone come and clean my carpets afterwards. (eww that was a bit gross).

The worst part is you start ranking this person along with yourself.  Like I am looking through her facebook pictures (yeah, yeah, I'm one of those people...gag) and she is not attractive at all.  She has 90's hair, a huge butterfly tattoo on her right boob, a kid, and she doesn't know how to spell simple words.  Am I on that same level of attractiveness? please God, say it ain't so!  She has a picture up of J and her daughter, and it says My king and My princess. GAH.

I thought of writing her an email warning her....but then decided something PSYCHO ex-girlfriends do. So I decided I'll pray for her instead.

Thank you

Just would like to put it out there....Thank you GOD!!!

For doing for me, what I could not do for myself.

Taking people out of my life, that were there just to serve as a life lesson, and then be moved on from.

I know you have someone wonderful, and perfectly imperfect planned for me.  Someone honest, faithful, and someone deserving of my over abundance of love that I'm just waiting to give to someone.

After finding out some truly disgusting things about J (that I won't divulge to this public forum) I have deleted him from my facebook, deleted his numbers from my phone, deleted every anything that he has ever sent to me.  GOODBYE, GOOD RIDDEN!!

I really truly think that I dodged a HUGE bullet. Once again God is looking out for this girl!

last ditch effort

Me: Hey boo you ok?
J: Ok why
Me: Just haven't heard from you in awhile, and was worried about you.
J: Busy
Me: I guess you are done with me then.
J: Brittany Im driving give me a break.
Me:I just miss you. I need you in my life, even just as a friend.
J: Chill for a min. I'm at the doctor. Ok.
Me: OK.

Fast forward to 11:00 last night...

Me: Not that you care...But I am DONE. I can't handle this anymore.


STUPID...in refrence to myself...why do I do this?? I continue to chase people that do not have the slightest interest in me.

D is for Dating

and Death.

and Dieting.

and Devil.



Why does everything bad have to start with "D". Ok..that's not a fair statement...lots of good things start with "D" as well. Dad. Deetz. Dogs. :)



But anywho...I have a lunch date set for next week with Mr. Rockclimber. I decided sandwiches is much safer than his first date choice of rock climbing (which I ended up not going on). I really do not enjoy eating on a date though, due to the fact that I don't have just butterflies in my stomach on first dates...but what seems to be large birds. We'll see how it goes though!

J texted me last night for the first time in hmmm...3 weeks...and not that I should have been surprised by this, but all he wanted to do was talk about his favorite subject...himself. He droned on and on about how much he dislikes someone at work, because he disrespects him, and how no one appreciates him there. No "how are you doing", no "I miss you". Nothing. My head says "RUN, you are lucky you got away", my heart says "I'm lonely, and he's cute". Oh little heart...haven't you learned??

On another note...I'm excited about my little man's 3rd birthday on Sunday!!!! :) My parents will be down as well. I cleaned my entire apartment last night thinking they would be here today, but then I got an email from my Dad at 7:30 this morning (thought they were on a plane) and checked Mom's itinerary that she sent, and I could have procrastinated for another day!! LOL.