Cheater

I cheated. BIG TIME. Here is a diary of all the bad crap I ate:

Thursday (It was my 3 year anniversary at work and they got Olive Garden):
I ate CHICKEN PARMIGAN and DR PEPPER

Friday:
Went to Fuji with Sarah, Chad, and Nephew
I ate HIBACHI CHICKEN with RICE and WHITE SAUCE

Saturday:
Went to the Zoo with Sarah, Chad and Nephew
I ate CHIC-FIL-A CHICKEN MINI BISCUITS, HASHBROWNS
HOT DOG and FRENCH FRIES, DT. DR. PEPPER
BAG OF BAKED POTATO CHIPS

Sunday:
Nephew and Nene day!
BURGER KING BREAKFAST BOWL, DIET COKE
half of nephews uneaten HASHBROWNS
FRIED!!! CHICKEN, FRENCH FRIES, DIET COKE!!

EEEEEEEEEEEEEE! But I'm back on the "wagon" this morning! Ate 100 calorie yogurt, and a bowl of cereal with some water. And going back to OA tonight.

Things that are making me scream...

Seriously craving some red velvet cupcakes right now...or any cupcake or cake for that matter. What is it with eating healthy that offers little to no sweet treats that are good for you? WW snacks? They are the size of my big thumb nail, and provide NO satisfication. The best thing I've found so far is jello 100 calorie choc. pudding. Good - but once again so small I feel the urge to eat the whole 6 pack! :)

Also on another note among the fact that I cannot consume cupcakes, I am fuming about a couple of other things:

• IPad 2! Really Apple?? I've lusted after the Ipad for a year, and finally broke down and got one with my tax return, and what do you do?? Put out one that's even better 20 days later, that costs the exact same price, and lower the price of the one that I just purchased.
• Maybelline Perfect Match concealer with roller! I just bought one for ?!12?! dollars, and it's total crap-o-la! It leaves lines, and makes your face look anything but smooth!
• Account Rep at work that makes more money than me, doesn't get any new business, and sits in his office all day!
• I didn't lose any lbs. this week, and I was so good!

Maybe it's the lack of cupcakes and soda that is making me irritable?? :)

Overeaters Anonymous

So inspired by the show Mike and Molly, and also a friend of mine, I found a OA meeting online in Spartanburg, and went to it (with said friend) this evening. And let me tell you...I LOVED it! This might just be the thing that makes this time different for me, and helps me keep off the weight for good! It's just nice to have people around you that are struggling with the same problems that you are, and some have come out of the struggling.

I will definetly be going back next Monday.

If you are interested, or would like to find a meeting to attend you can check them out at www.oa.org

Heart 0 : Body 1

So this weekend, even though my heart didn't stay physically fit :(,

my body still did :)

Even though my little bitty heart got dropped yet again, I stuck to my diet!

Confession:

It didn't hurt that I also had the stomach flu AGAIN this weekend, LOL.

But an achievement is an achievment none the less.

My goals for the week:

No soda, no fast food, eat breakfast, and work out atleast 3 times.

Also LOSE 5 more pounds! :)

Addicted

So, if you know me, you know that I am the poster girl for Yo-Yo dieting. Last year when I was going to get married (never happen, but that's a different blog ;) ) I got all the way down to 140 lbs. and was in a size 6 wedding dress! Which was very exciting for me, since I'd never had clothes that were in the single digits before. I did this by working out with a personal trainer 3 days a week, and doing cardio for the other 2 days. I was also doing the Weight Watchers program on my own. And then....I gained it alllllll back, plus some. So I was thinking..what will make this time different for me?

This time I have to have a different mindset to survive. I am going to treat my eating like an addiction. When you are a drug addict trying to leave a sober life, you must "stay clean" no matter what. Never pick up, no matter what. You do this because you know that the drugs will take you over, and impact your life in negative ways. I am taking this approach with eating. Soda, the Big Mac meal at McDonalds, Potato chips have to be all equal to drugs in my mind. I can not pick them up, no matter what. I must stay clean because my body, my confidence will all be negatively impacted.

This time will be different, I know it. This time, I'll be bulletproof.

Project 100

I gave myself a new goal and a new project. I call it Project 100. The goal is to lose 100 lbs. in 100 days. Which sounds like a LOT, but I don't want to 'sandbag' my goal, and I think it's obtainable. Now I know that this is going to take a LOT of work on my part, but I'm up for it! I plan on working out every day as much as possible, and also stick to a healthy diet...including....wait for it...NO SODA for 100 days, NO FAST FOOD (subway is not included) for 100 days. Drinking 8 glasses of water a day. Eating fruits and veggies. NO EATING AFTER 7 PM. Think it's do-able?? I do!

As part of this Project 100, I will also be blogging about my journey as well. Roadblocks, goals attained and pictures of my process...so without further ado..my before picture!

Pant Size: 20
Shirt Size: 1x-2x
Weight: 238